Glory to the Supernal Rose

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9th of Rosa – Pomedi

Happy Rosalia / Rosa Mundi / High Feast of Roses to all my Filianic sisters!

I had hoped to ready my altar with proper roses for this holiday but we had no deliveries to my shop and I haven’t found time to buy them elsewhere. So I’ve had to make do with carnations, which are pretty and a few of the pink ones are ‘rose like’, though not quite having the same effect. I know that Déa appreciates the effort, as it was She who made them to begin with. I’ve also been too busy today to do the little fire ritual I had planned. My duties as an auntie have to come before my religious practice; something which I also believe Déa approves of, as my dedication and care to my niece reflects Her gentle nurturing of all Her children.

At the very least I have been able to do a few prayers and listened to five books of the Daughter’s teachings (Pillar of Light to the Crystal Tablet in the ECE). For anyone who is interested in downloading the audio version of the Recital, recorded by myself and Sorella Monica, please send me an email via my contact page. I feel the small chapter on Our Mother’s Love is the most befitting on this festival.

“Take heart, My children, take joy and courage in our Mother. For She who created you also loves you, even to the end of the age. Take heart, though you have turned from Her, for She has not forsaken you, neither are Her eyes filled with anger. And Her hands that have shattered the gates of hell shall not harm you; that have broken hell’s foundation shall be lain on you in gentleness. Therefore hide yourself not from Her, and put aside the tangled weeds of thought that strive each with the other. For of all things, love is the simplest.” – On Our Mother’s Love

Any day is a good day to be reminded, when the shadows of this world try to harden our hearts, just how much Mari loves us. This passage always gives me the image of Her as a mother lioness who would rip apart anyone who threatened her cub and also protect and nurture her young so tenderly. We often see the Celestial Mother depicted in images of the Virgin Mary, pure and kind and gentle, as truly She is. But She is also fierce and passionate, even somewhat terrifying, in what She will do to save us. From crushing the ‘snake’ that tempted the first daughter and brought about the chasm of kear, to separating Herself in the form of Her Daughter in order to be closer to us, then shattering the gates of Hell and making the demons within scatter as She went forth to rescue Her beloved Zoe Anna; and in doing so, rescuing all Her children.

Fire is the element of Agyia Vicka, Jana of Courage and Valour. Today we light candles and bonfires to celebrate the fierce determination of Our Mother, who is not just our creator and nourisher, but also our protector from the creatures of darkness. It is Her Light that makes the keres and archons scutter away in terror before they, too, seek the redemption of Heaven and the forgiveness of Déa.

“For those who shelter in the darkness fear, above all things, the Messengers of Light.”Way of Simplicity v.42 

Meanwhile the Rose is the symbol of both the Mother and the Daughter. Our Lady Zoe is truly the Rose of the World (Rosa Mundi) while Mother Mari is the Rose of Heaven (Rosa Caeli). The innermost temple in the heart of Maids is also described in the scriptures as taking the form of a rose. It is no mystery why so many of the Disney fairytales I watched, both with my niece and growing up myself, have reoccurring images of roses. Both Snow White and Sleeping Beauty are described as having ‘lips as red as the rose’, the latter also being renamed ‘Briar Rose’ while in exile. The salvation of the Prince in Beauty and the Beast is also connected to magical rose. The image of our Heavenly Princess has radiated throughout history in fairy tales of maidens and princesses overcoming evil with their pure, loving hearts as well as their bravery.

My matron Hera, Agyia Magdalene, is also heavily connected to rose imagery. She is often depicted either with red hair or a red cloak or holding her legendary red egg. There is a connection drawn in the, albeit most definitely fictional, Da Vinci Code between Magdalene’s legacy and the ‘Rose Line’ / ‘Rosslyn’. This inspired me to take my faith name as Roselyn. All of Magdalene’s legends, both orthodox and esoteric combined, give an image of Her as both the Holy Daughter and also a Holy Mother Herself, bearing a daughter ‘Sarah’ (meaning Princess) according to some. Whether or not these are historically accurate holds little bearing for me, the legends and tales themselves are more examples of the Heavenly Mother and Holy Daughter’s cyclical mythos. Magdalene was a holy woman who, according to Sophian Gnostics, experienced the sufferings of the world before ascending up from the darkness into the Her liberation. It also believed by some that She became the daughter the Virgin Mary never had, whether through marriage  to her son or simply a close meeting of kindred spirits. Together they form an interesting avatar of the Mother and Daughter.

Be sure to take a moment today to meditate on the verse of Our Mother’s Love and be assured of Her devotion to you. In Her eyes, we are all princesses (or prince, if you fancy) of Heaven; our true home. Rosalia is about remembering that our Assumption into Her arms is guaranteed and without condition – it just may take longer to cross that bride of kear depending on our path. No matter what; She loves us.

She loves you.

Blessed is Mum.



Here Cometh The Lady

See Her riding on the stardust,
Hear the Angels proclaim Her arrival,
The Daughter of Light,
The Lady of the Fiery Rose,
Our Saviour and Redeemer,
She has come.
Cross the great chasm of illusion,
Through the dense fog of folly,
Her flame becons us home.
O Princess Divine,
O Mistress of the Dawn,
She whose love has flooded Hell itself,
She who has turned none from Her grace.
For centuries they have denied Her,
For aeons She has been degraded and forgotten,
And yet where is Her anger?
Where is Her wrath?
All She has for Her nay-sayers,
Is a hand stretched out in compassion,
And an invitation for redemption.
Most humble is the Heavenly Maid,
Blessed is the Child of Sophia,
Blessed is Our Kyria;
Zoe Anna.


Visions of Avala

22nd of Flora – Stelladi

Today I took a rather longer than usual walk with my dogs, seeing as the weather was so beautiful. I’m fortunate enough to have some lovely open Essex fields and woods around where I live. I could lose myself for hours just walking across them and sometimes not come across another human soul (unless its another dog walker or jogger). Honestly I do more praying when I’m out walking than I do at home, as it’s actually easier to be by myself when I’m out on a walk. My dogs are much less judgemental about my spiritual practice than humans are.

This morning I took a detour through a small wood and came across this little seating area where a tree had fallen, making a surprisingly comfortable bench. I sat there for a while in quiet meditation, listening to the bird song, reciting a couple of Psalms.

After leaving the woods, I came to another field that had a rather large hill. I always have this strange compulsion, in both video games and in real life, to go to the top of any hill or mountain where I can appreciate the view. There were quite a few nettles and prickly leaves surrounding the hill but I endured the slight stings to get to the top and, again, just sit and take in how gorgeous this world is.

While I sat there, I did attempt to record more audio versions of Déanic scriptures, these ones being a collection of Psalms compiled by Glenn King. This is to go with audio versions I have recorded of the Clear Recital and the Janite Psalms, both of which are complete (though may be re-recorded for improvement at a later date). Anyone wishing to have a free copy of these, please do let me know. However as I tried to read aloud Glenn’s psalms, my labradoodle decided to start playing hide and seek, and I didn’t think it would be very pleasant if my reading of scriptures was combined with me shouting for my wayward pup. So I hope to do those at a later date. The audio formats are not for anything official or to be sold; I just personally enjoy listening to scripture as much as reading it. Even as a child I preferred audio books, while still appreciating the written word (this may be due to my many sight problems growing up).

Listening to the scriptures while gazing out at our sister, the Earth, always fills me with such a glowing warmth. I feel like I’m gazing out a glimpse of Avala, or to the Perfect World which existed before the ‘fall’, and the illusion of matter.

Yet the true self also loves this earth; but loves it for that it is an image of the Divine. For the world is as a crazed and spotted mirror, reflecting the perfect country of Eternity. – The Three Loves (v. 5-6)

It is easy to see a flower, or the clear sky, or a smiling child as an image of Déa. One of my daily struggles is to also remember to see Her in what is not always so obvious. Or hidden by the kear of my own soul. For instance, seeing Her in the face of a customer at work who is rude or frustrating. Or seeing Her in a politician who is poisoning the world. It’s sometimes difficult to remember that, even in the most vile and hateful of people, there is a spark of Sophia within them, crying out to be freed. And She loves all Her children equally; it is merely our own kear that defines the distance between souls and Déa. Even myself I sometimes have to remind, when I have moments of depression or self-loathing, I try to remember that I am a reflection of Her. And even so, the scriptures remind us, that we are not our bodies or our minds, as both part from us eventually.


Blessed is Our Lady,

Blessed is She.


Zoe’s Pride

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Pride Month has begun. We are also coming up to Rosalia: the Feast of Assumpta in the Janite Calendar (known as Rosa Mundi in the Orthodox calendar). Rosalia takes place on the Summer Solstice, when the sun is at the highest point in the sky. As the sun is a symbol of Our Heavenly Mother, we praise Her and how Her tears revive and assume all of her children into Heaven along with Our Saviour; Zoe Sophia.

As a Christian I had to wrestle constantly with coming to terms with my sexuality as well as my faith. On the one hand the Bible seemed to clear in its forbidding of same-sex relationships, both in Leviticus and the writings of Paul. And Evangalists are always very vocal, to say the least, in reminding us of this. However, the internet led me to many different ways to view the Bible and to read from LGBT Christian apologists who explained the various interpretations one could read into these passages. Now there are denominations who approve of and even sanctify same-sex marriages. The Church of England in which I was raised blesses gay and lesbian civil partnerships, but not in the ‘sacrament of marriage’. While I have not been a Christian, let alone orthodox, for many many years, I do admire and support the struggle of LGBT members of the church fighting to change its stance and give LGBT people equal rights and respect.

Even as a Gnostic Christian, I was still left rather disillusioned. Sure, most neo-Gnostic churches and groups support and affirm same-sex relations, but their theological language is still mostly steeped in heteronormativity. Almost as if the only way the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine can be held as equal is if compared to a heterosexual relationship. Man and wife. Father and Mother. The Lord and his Bride etc. The Sophian Gnostic ‘secret gospel’ of Mary Magdalene written by Tau Malachi speaks of how twin souls must meet in ‘male and female’ bodies in order to be made whole. I’ve also seen many mentions how the “love play between a man and woman echoes the love of the divine mother and father.” Statements such as this, even if merely metaphorical, give the impression that same-sex relationships don’t hold the same spiritual meaning as do those of hetero couples. This is also a common problem in a lot of modern Paganism, I found, specifically in Wicca where the focus on the Goddess and God as lovers is also compared to a sexual relationship that unites the two in ‘perfect balance’.

I’m a lesbian. I’m a woman who is attracted to other women. I don’t consider myself ‘butch’ nor ‘femme’; I am who I am. Some days I like to wear pink tops or dresses while other days I wear sporty clothes – this doesn’t affect my being a woman. And I’ve found myself attracted to many different types of women as well. I’m not a ‘feminine’ who needs to unite with a ‘masculine’ to be made complete, nor vise versa. And as a Filianist, obviously, I do not believe that Déa needs a Deus to complete Her. She is whole in and of Herself. She conceived Her Daughter by Her own magnificent grace. We as Maids are not made complete merely by a sexual relationship to another. The only union that completes our journey is by uniting with Déa Herself. It is by our turned human souls embracing and being one with our Kyria, Zoe.

But love is important. Love binds us together in one body to help bring all souls unto Déa so that we can be saved. True Love, something we often hear and read about in fairy tales between a knight and a princess or some variant thereof, is not limited to a man and woman. True Love may involve a sexual union but is, in truth, a force in itself separate from lust or physical desire. Love forms between two women. Love forms between two men. True Love is formed between a parent and child, just as Our Lady was risen up by the loving embrace of Her Mother and made whole again. True Love happens between friends or siblings. True Love is in putting all your energy and efforts into a righteous cause for others; just as Our Lady proved Her love for all of us by descending into the darkest depths and shattering Her Soul for us.

There is nothing in the Recital which condones or condemns intimate relationships, except one of which I am aware, and is all that needs to be said:

“Yet those whose union is an expression of the love of souls shall be counted chaste in My name for the sake of that love.” – the Way of Simplicity (v. 13)

Déa approves and blesses all unions, regardless of gender or sexuality, so long as it is a true expression of the love of souls. The love of souls has to be equal in respect and consent on both parts for it to be a true expression of love – I feel the whole message of the Recital carries this implication. One can debate and discourse until the end of days what sort of relationships this might imply but we must always come back to the core message of the scripture.

I do still pray to one day meet the woman of my dreams who I might share a deep and intimate connection with, in a union that helps lift up my soul to the light of Déa in ecstasy. But until that day comes, and even after, my heart and soul belongs to Déa, who made my spirit Perfect in Her image.

Blessed is She.

I’ll leave this post with an updated photo of my altar, as this week I have placed a beautiful set of roses as my offering to Déa, reminding me of the shape of the temple of my heart and how my Lady Zoe is the fiery rose of heaven.



Filianism: More than just ‘a feminist religion’.

Filianism is seeing every living soul as your sister; regardless of their outward bodily form.

Filianism is appreciating the beauty and simple wisdom of child-like innocence, as much as the sage advice of our elders.

Filianism is not being caught up in turbulent discourse that causes strife and distracts from the truth of Love.

Filianism is not offering meat or blood as sacrifice because Our Mother takes no delight in the hurt of her creatures.

Filianism is walking carefully on the earth and respecting her environment.

Filianism is caring for animals, as human Maids / axial beings have been set to watch over them.

Filianism is meditating on the Mythos, on how we are born from Mother’s laughter and saved by the Daughter’s love.

Filianism is believing that all will someday be saved by Our Lady, even to the last blade of grass.

Filianism is celebrating Our Lady in the cycles of nature and the wheel of the year.

Filianism is seeking and finding unconditional love, forgiveness and comfort in the arms of Déa – no matter who you are or what you repent for.

Filianism is studying the Teachings and learning how to bridge the chasm of kear.

Filianism is not being critical of how another person treads their spiritual (or atheist) path, as only She is judge.

Filianism can be quiet and contemplative but is not monastic; it it just as much action and example in the world Our Mother has made for us.

Filianism is acknowledging we all have kear within us, and no Maid is perfect except for the Holy Daughter – but Our Mother loves us and wants us to try our best.

Filianism is prayer, as often as we can, whether at daily times or in the rhythm of your steps or a song of praise – or just to blow Déa a kiss goodnight after a busy day.

Filianism is trying to balance to seven streams of virtue in all your actions:

Filianism is charity, its sharing joy and laughter.

Filianism is being modest, not for another but for yourself and Déa.

Filianism is being courageous, not aggressive.

Filianism is keeping your mind open to new knowledge.

Filianism is being fair and just, it is helping to create a Thamelic (harmonious) space for all Maids.

Filianism is showing kindness and compassion to all.

Filianism is restraining yourself when necessary and finding inner peace.

Filianism is Love; Love of other maids, Love of yourself, and Love of Déa.

[Note: the above are some examples of what Filianism means to me outside of just being about believing God is feminine, which is what is always held up as if it is the be all and end all of our religion. Yes, it is an important point, as you cannot be a Filianist without believing Déa is feminine; Mother, Daughter and Dark Mother. But I feel it’s also important to remember that you cannot be a Filianist and believe that point alone, ignoring everything else our faith teaches. Just as one should not call themselves a Muslim if they do not uphold the five pillars of Islam, or call themselves a Christian if their faith is believing in Christ’s existence alone but not following his teachings.

Obviously I would not tell anyone if they are being a ‘good Filianist’ or not, as it is not my place to judge. And by no means do I always remember to do the above things in life – but I try as best as I can, and respect my sisters who do the same.]

Happy Floralia!


10th of Flora – Columbadi

Today is the Festival of Flowers, known in the Janite Tradition as Floralia and the Filianic Calendar as Florimaia. Flowers are sacred symbols of Our Lady. They are gifts of beauty born from Our Mother. I admit that I was never too into flowers until very recently when I started regularly placing a vase on my shrine as seen above. Now, if my flowers begin to wilt, I almost can’t bear to see the vase empty. I began in the Spring with daffodils which are a popular early flower for the year and easy to find, but they sadly go out of season rather swiftly. Now I mostly place tulips in my vase as offerings to Sophia; a rather simple but pretty flower and not too expensive to replace each week. I’m quite proud of the colour I was able to find in time for Floralia; the burning red and yellow are so gorgeous and inspire my passion to praise my Lady in all things.

As an aside, my mother taught me a good tip with tulips. Drop a penny in the vase and they don’t droop. So far it’s always worked!

There is also a magnolia tree in my garden which blooms only for a couple of months before the petals fall and practically cover my garden, but they are beautiful, and remind me of how Our Lady walked upon the blossoms thrown at her feet in celebration, yet her feet did not bruise them. That’s how gentle and peaceful Kyria Zoe is and how we, as Maids, should try to move through the Earth, harming as little as possible.

I should do a quick explanation for my shrine while I’m posting the image. Yes, it’s very cut-and-paste as I am currently still living at home and keep very quiet about my religious beliefs due to living with anti-religious parents. The image for the Daughter is sadly not very Sophian related, but is a statue of Aphrodite I picked up from Cyprus, which works well enough for the mean time (and Aphrodite is a living stream image of Madria Grace). The ‘Daughter’ card is actually a birthday card from my mother which has come in very useful. I have four small candles for when I need to call the Quarters for a proper Rite as well as a main candle for the Lady. Both the bracelet and the necklace in the bag were purchased from a cute little New Age store that has recently set up shop close to me – the bracelet I use as prayer beads. The photograph of my late dog might be the oddest thing to place on a religious altar; but she was my best friend and losing her broke my heart. While I have two living furry babies that I love just as much, I know my old girl is still watching over me as a Guardian Angel. Whether that is something accepted in Déanic theology or not, I honestly don’t care, it’s my own personal belief. At the very least; All Dogs Go To Avala.

In recent news; I have decided to go back to identifying as a Janite Filianist. This is partly due to how Déanism has recently become too broad a label to really hold much purpose for me using it to identify my beliefs. For a long time Déanism referred to faiths derived from Madrian teachings but that differed from Filianism, while still sharing the belief in Mother God. However this has now become a term for which any religion, not connected in any way to Madrianism, to identify itself so long as it believes in God as Mother. I want to stress that I don’t think this is a bad thing at all! In a patriarchal world where religion is largely masculine in language and imagery, there should be an umbrella term for those who of us who embrace the Divine Feminine to connect with each other. But with so many different beliefs and ideas under that umbrella, not all are going to agree or connect, which is inevitable. It’s a bit like a Christian constantly having to also identify themselves as Abrahamic, which they rarely do, as neither do Muslims or Jews. They may connect together sometimes in interfaith dialogue but they are largely separate, which is okay so long as there is still respect and harmony between the faiths. This I also feel can be true for Déanism.

Janite beliefs, as well as what originally was my own Sophian Filianic tradition, share much more with Filianists than just a general belief in God as Mother. We have the same scriptures, the same wheel of the year, the same idea of the Trinity and the Janati – the only differences being in choice of language and some other minor details. We do have other disagreements with the Chapel and those involved with Chelouranya, which is why we could never be the same as Orthodox Filianists, but we are still connected in other ways. I cannot speak for the entire Janite Tradition at this point if it will definite itself as Filianic, but I have decided personally to go back to identifying as Filianist, with the blessing of ArchMadria Candra Sophia. I am a Janite Filianist, though I will also call myself a Sophian now and then, as She will always be the centre of my faith as She has been for the past fifteen years or more. Whether I’ve been Pagan, Gnostic or Déanic; I was always a Sophian before anything else. But this is now implied also in the Janite name, as Sophia is our Living Stream Image of Déa.

May we always see the flowers of the earth that reflect the glory of Déa.

Blessed is She.